Today Lotsa things happen... Or.... maybe noT? First, Go bring gal come to my hse for the FIRST TIME.. haha.. Then ate lunch.. and after drinking the Lime Juice which my daddy made, She seems to love it alot.. and even wanan learn to make.. keke.. =P BUt my dad ask Gal to come my hse often more so can drink more... keke =P...
*It means 1 good ting, My parents like mY Da Ben Dan !!! ^^ so happy..
Next Practially, we slack tgt in the room... haha.. MY room.. * dun tink dirty DUDES * and i got to find out wad gal really wanted.. hehe.. CAn say BY MYSELF, MY OBservation.. =P...
*CAn liddat say hor Gal?* =P
Oh well.. w/ some clue given and observation during the last outing, i finally noe wad gal wanted.. =) gonna get her tat.. but haha dunno when to gib oso.. To be consider further.. =)
Then.. hee.. Today Is the First time.. or maybe last time i nv really notice, Gal make mi feel so LOVED by her... haha.. Dunno how to say oso.. It's like.. when i asked, "So Who u Love?" She nv say anything and instead gave mi a kiss... Wow.. I was SHOCKED!! and happy flying in the sky e same time.. hehe.. Gonna Bring her to my hse more often hehe.. =P Then We massaged for each other.. =).. Fun fun and nice nice..
Oh Ya Almost forget.. haha... i read wad Gal tag in my tagboard w/ her beside mi.. haha guess tat's the stupidest thing i did today.. =P...
And One last thign.. I gonna train UP!
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Suddenly i felt so troubled.. Haiz.. ytd after the fone chat w/ Da Ben Dan, ONe thing keep ringing in my mind.. tat's she felt tat " I had treated her less betta compare to the past " and next is she said " U treat mi less betta, i will oso treat u less betta "
All i wanna do nw is try my best to erase tt feeling of hers... coz.. It's wad i felt before... i always tot i'm the one treating her very good.. then i dun feel tat she is treating the same "Goodness" to mi.. therefore i lowered my expectation and become less "Doting?" However seems like it was a bad choice, bad move after all.. the moment i lowered, she lowered too.. Sigh...
It's true nth in this world is fair and perfect.. Oh well maybe i'm asking too much i guess.. was tinking she might be the only gal who is different from the others i had b4 and would care more for mi.. As for the past few, always i kept quiet abt the pain i had, the hurt i got from their actions and keep giving and giving w/o asking for return..tat resulted mi getting the most hurt frm the relationships i had. Was hoping it would changed for this one.. but i guess it may not be so.. Oh well.. It's has always been liddat perhaps i juz stick to wad God has given to mi.. I Shan Ask more for now..
I had made up my mind.. right from this instant, i will juz be the same as b4..tat "Ideal" Bf everyone wanted.. All i wan her is to be the HAPPIEST gal on EArth.. Betta than Kai ying.. Betta then Aud.. Betta than any other gal in this forsaken world.. =) tink tat might be the best choice i eva made.. haha..
{Pray and Pray and Pray} She would treat mi more impt than her frenz and TELEVISION.. haha.. Oh well.. cant do a ting except to pray... Oh god.. I pray... Let this last till i die... I wanna Marry this gal... I dun mind sacrificing anything already.. even if it's my life.. had a nap juz now.. and dreamt of her dropping down... i jumped down to save her.. but of coz, i couldn't do much expect to jump w/ her, hugged her.. and turn her around.. making my body the one tat land first to absorb the impact for her... then as i noe i'm gonna leave her, I told her this in the dream, " Go find a betta guy than mi.. =) " and she dropped tears.. ahha.. wondered if tat would happen?
Ponderssss..................... Pen down.. Off to work!
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Juz feeling bored and see our this compatible test
@ http://www.psychicsource.com/readings/lovesigns/lovesigns.asp
Here's the Result
Look around you for the most physically attractive couple in the room, and it will almost certainly be a Leo and Libra combination. There is SOMETHING about the two of them that makes people stop and stare---and they know it! The danger here is that they will get involved for all the superficial reasons--beauty, popularity, money--and not even recognize how great they are together in every way. These two are both incredibly romantic, marriage-minded, and can be completely monogamous, once their hearts have been captured. If they can focus on the inner workings of their relationship instead of getting caught up in public adulation, they can have one of the happiest and most fulfilling relationships in the Zodiac.
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Today is such a boring day.. Zzz.. Fri went out w/ gal.. enjoyed every moment of it.. man.. i seems to get CHARMED by her le.. =P... But it's good.. haha.. Liddat makes mi faithful? One day w/o her is like one day w/o my soul... Miss her every single day.. haha.. I oso dunno wad to write le.. oh well.. =).. End here den.. haha.. Things is getting betta and betta le.. Hee Hope the day goes like these.. =D~ ( BEtta and BEtta )
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Recently really dunno wad happen sia.. Today quarrelled w/ gal wor..-.-" over some trivial matter which we cant seems to compromise or give in..
She is very FIX on her tinking i cant go w/ her to places like club, pub and kbox.. Asked her why and she say she juz dun wan it..
Then later got on fone w/ a few ppl.. then kinda tells em abt the situation... Maybe tat's my way of consoling myself or finding the way gals tink ba? But all the ans are negative.. really dun feel like saying it.. it's like if i say le, Gal may feel tat i am comparing her again.. haiz.. really wished this kinda days wont come at all man... Sigh... If she happen to read this she will noe if not, forget abt it...
I juz dun understand and i find it quite ridiculous as in why she wont wanna mi to go w/ her to such places.. wad;s her tinking.. even wei ming say tat if he were mi he would oso get angry a lil.. Coz is like Weiming said, all his fren go clubbing or wad.. the gals would asked "can i go too" this kinda ting.. or etc.. but gal is so different frm wad weiming said.. instead she wouldn't wan mi to be involved at all..
Clubbing can be a gal's nite out as well as a couple nite out wad... each and everything event is different being w/ different ppl althou it's the same activity.. i cant understand why am i restricted to go w/ her to this places...
then My cousin called and ask mi go MOMO tml night w/ her.. then i tink betta not.. coz now the situation is liddat and i oso dun hav the mood anymore..
I was tinking.. AM I WRONG to get angry and AM I unreasonable? Up till now, the ans is like No? HAiz.. I really dun understand why she dun wan mi go to these places w/ her.. cant even sing w/ her...
My cousin Said, she's kinda wierd oso.. like as if She isn't Proud to have mi liddat.. Sigh.. DUn wanna tink of the negative already.. Gotta find one day to chat w/ her.. really.. i tink things are getting outta hand. and our understandings to each other is low... at least i dun really understand her...
Why is her tinking so unpredictable?
Juz wish to chat things out b4 things get outta hand...
~~~ Dun understands~~~
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Wow.. Today, Juz now went w/ my dad to do some banking kinda things.. Suddenly mY dad starts to *Lecture* mi abt relationship kinda things.. haha.. =D~ SO true man wad he said.. Gotta keep in mind... haha.... =X
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Went out w/ gal finally when she is back.. everything went great and the present is finally given hopes she likes it.. zzz.. today a short and quality trip.. everything was nice.. haha... but sad is time is short.. =(... Then went to eat shark fin w/ family.. long time nv eat le.. ate a small pot of it.. costs $50 man!! I Burn a hole in my dad's wallet haha.. =X.. then go home le..
Tok to gal juz now.. Sigh... I might juz be a crossing stone... Like how i was in the past few yrs in ppl lives... Oh well.. Gotta BE strong.. Be prepared may it be good or wad..
* CheerS to MyselF~ =D Cheer uP~ =)
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Today is a rainy day.. and it's oso e day where She will be back today.. Deep Down I'm feeling.. Sad....... I oso dunno why... I missed her alot... cut myself 2 days ago while opening Oysters for the customer.. So tired... I reallly misses her alot.. I wonder will she miss mi so much too... Maybe She's happy and enjoying ba? It's always so nice to see her smile.. for her smile takes away all sorrows and troubles within mi.. It Feels so happy w/ her ard mi.. by mi... May it be fone or personally... During this 1 week, she isn't by mi.. i feel so lonely.. Like there's really no one i can confide to and tok heartily to except Her.. My gal Ad3...
Hopefully today when she comes back i'll be the first one she will contact to once she got down e plane and not any other ppl... But Seriously, I got a Feeling I WONT be tat Special someone to be the first to noe of her return.. Maybe her Frenz first? Nevertheless, I look forward for her return Praying for her happiness and safety.. and hoping to be the First...
I would like to be e first in everything regardin abt her.. i dun wanna be e second or last to noe.. Been tinking quite alot.. Whether should i go to Clement's B`day Party.. As in... If i go, gal will be crazy w/ her frenz and i'll be left alone but in another perspective, IF I go yet she can balance between mi and her frenz. it'll be a great leap Out as in the "First Step" closer to her frenz.
Oh God pls tell mi whether i should go or not.. And i had Off frm 20-24 of sept taken juz to accompany her.. hopefully can.. =))'
Pray and Pray time passes quickly so tat i can hear her voices tonite! =) MAy she be chatty and Crazy abt mi.. and More Dependent on mi.. ( Pray aR!!! =P )
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today.. another boring day whole day at home.. rotting.. MIssing her really bad.. =(
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Today nth much happen juz the normal go to work routine then go home le.. I really Misses Gal alot.. =(... I miss her so Much.. I wished she can sensed it..
Days w/o Her is so meaniningless =(.. I pray for ur safety and i hope u will return soon.. juz 5 days more...
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Today Alot of thing happen.. first ting is go to work.. then My bracelet, BrokeD!!! and worse is my $20 "Tian Zhu" Chipped! >.<.. heart pain... haha.. gotta go back to tamp to repair the bracelet.. hopefully can..
Then I smsed Gal.. Suprisingly, she SMSED mi saying HER PARENT NOE abt us.. haha.. I was shocked.. utterly no words can describe my feelings then... It was happy and sad.. Hapy coz Finally, I'm acknowledge by Gal's Parent and her mom even tell her to bring mi to their hse.. hee.. But sad Coz tat time she told mi her parent object her relationships b4.. so kinda scared.. but.. well it turned out to be a good thing afterall =) Right now, Gal next time can tell her parent she go out w/ mi instead of using other ppl names to replace my name.. Oh well it's a good thing to be Acknowledge FINALLY~ =)
I tink Gal is oso happy coz she wont lie to her parents anymore and that her parents nv oppose us despite knowing she got a bf.. hehe.. But sad thing is she flying off today.. for her holiday to Bangkok.. =(... Siggh... Missing her right now..
Juz now on the way home after work. it was so lonely.. i really wish she's still in SG tat she can sms mi or call mi.. I misses her and her voice.. and i gonna miss tat for this coming 6 days.. =(
Right now, the only thing in my mind is to finish my cross-stitch so as to gib her a belated 3rd month present.. haha.. Today is our 3rd month already.. althou we nv celebrate, But.. The HAppiest Gifts today is nt frm anyone of us.. but her parent.. Coz.. haha.. I tink gal noe wad i feeling and saying..
the next ting is should i attend Clement's bday on the 22nd? to tag along w/ her? i scare i will be left out and be a burden.. but i wish to treasure every opportunity i can to meet her.. Maybe i will tag along.. and.. heh.. Hopefully she can be by mi oso.. =)
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Today I'm juz feeling happy.. Hee.. Gal finally laugh!! haha.. It's so nice hearing her laughter and smile.. so angelic.. Omg.. I fall for u even deeper le.. =).. Finally u noe how exactly i feel =).. I'm more devoted than wad u think wad.. i noe it's fast but.. it's deep =) I love u gal... I meant it every single time i said it to u =)..
Then Now u dun like huggin in e public haha nvm public i do e job.. =) Muahah.. then when nt tat time u do lor.. keke.. =P Really happy to hear u laughed.. Man.. My heart is so much betta now.. =)
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OMg.. I read gal's blog and the story dere. I cried.. I'm gonna call u now.. I dun wan everything to be too late.. Sobz
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I wanna tell u......
My life wont be meaningful without you. every day, hr, min n sec is thining abt u. u r part of my life n it will be 4ever de.
although we did quarrel, can put everything behind n restart again
sometime we need to go thru obstacle to love each other more
understand each other more
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Ytd night, slp rather late as i dunno why i really cant slp.. Life been so meaningless and restless w/o her by my side.. i really needed her.. haiz... I miss her alot.. And i dreamz of her last night tat everything was alright.. i hope that after this everythin will be fine or even betta...
This morning, Woke up at 8.45 then Nua till 9.45 liddat.. Held the rabbit she gave mi closely and tightly.. I really misses her.. My heart aches more and more.. I nv felt more miserable than this.. I really hate this type of feelings..
Then alot of things flashes thru my mind again... Like.. Why izzit tat the way she treat her fren is betta than mine somewhat? i feel so inferior.. I juz wish to be treated the same or maybe even betta afterall, ya.. i'm her bf.. I wish her to be like w/ her fren wheneva w/ mi, can jokes, can play, can laugh etc.. I really misses those time we were having on the first 2 months.. it was really great like.. she will pinch my tummy, tap my cheek, then do those funny faces and in the end of all things, it's laughter..
Now, Everything seems to be a goner.. maybe i'm tinking too much.. E attention i wanted is juz the attention she would gave to her fren or more ba.. MaybeI'm juz being selfish.. but I juz wished to be treated tat way.. I Wish to bring her happiness than sadness.. I wanna see her smile again or make her smile.. I dun like to see her looking so down..
I do admit complaining abt her is my fault.. Therefore, i shan go much to that.. Maybe tat fateful night i shouldn't have tok on fone w/ her.. Haiz.. I juz wish to apologise to u.. I'm sorry Gal... ='( Right now, i really hates Night and Morning When i juz woke up.. At night, i will tink of her.. and i cant slp and all these matters which is making mi very sad.. I dun wanna "break" w/ her.. I really cant bear to let go.. And I'm more than willing to forego everything Juz for her.. I really wish she can understand the way i'm tinking.. It's all becoz i love her.. then in the morning things will flash thru my mind making mi think again.. I really hate to be alone.. E feeling is so lonely now.. Sobz i wish time would go back and history will change althou i noe it's impossible.. =(
She say wait till she comes back then we talk abt things.. I really wish nth would change during her trip... Nth as in Nth bad.. I cant lift up my spirit.. Neither can i smile.. Neither do i have to appetite to eat.. I juz feel so moodless abt everything i do.. So much changed becoz of that night.. I really wish it would have nv come..
I really wan u ... Wan u back by my side.. I juz needed more of ur attention and time juz to let mi assure my heart and everything will be fine.. I promise..
My thinking:
I juz Wish u to treat mi the way u did b4 e exam start.. tat amt of time spent and attention is enuff le..
I wont ask for anything more and i will be more satisfied w/ wad i have now..
I juz wish to apologise for comparing u w/ other couples, Apologise for becoming more demanding ( but i tink is due to the different in attention u gave mi b4 and after exam ) But i will change..
I dunno wad i saying oso.. All i noe is want everything to be fine or betta when u come back frm the hols... take care over dere.. =)
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I juz did a test after browsing gal's blog and this is the result
You are 28.57% jealous!For this test, the average jealousy percentage is 35.54%.310599 people have taken this test to date.
This percentage means that :
•You have very few jealous traits.
•You rarely over-react and have a handle on the severity of situations.
•Whatever jealous attributes you do have will not present a problem in relationships, and will sometimes help.
*I wonder izzit really true? Hmm.. I pondered..
Today Everything not very "Shun" I regretted wad happen ytd.. if i hadn't been so picky, things wouldn't had become like this.. i really wish that everything can be rewind.. I read gal's blog.. and wad she is feeling thru, is wad i'm feeling.. My heart really hurts alot for her.. And today, alot of things run thru my mind.. and i actually thought things out already.. i wish to tell u.. but i noe u dun feel like toking to mi.. =(
I really regret so many things.. all those i hav done.. now, she say she wanted a break to cool down.. I really Fear "TAT" would come i really dun wish thing to get so outta hand.. I'm sorry for being so unreasonable.. I promise i will learn to be satisfy wid wad i have...
At work, i really not myself and i really dunhave to mood.. i keep tinking abt u gal.. I'm sorry to make u worry tat i got cut again.. =( I will try to take good care of myself.. I juz wanna everything to be back.. =) Then on my way home.. my ez link no money and i nv bring wallet.. lucky my parents nv go msia.. if not.. tat's the end..
I ending here le.. My last words..
I really miss u.. and I love you.. I dun wanna lose u.. PLs Gib mi a chance..
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This blog dies today..
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Been so long since i last blog.. haha.. Today woke up at 6.30!!! Zzz coz hav to go for a talk.. then it's quite interested for the presentation introduction part.. but as we tour ard, it get more and more boring.. Sianz.. nanotechnology isn't as simple as i tot.. it mixes bio, genetic, chem, phy and engineering all tgt to make the nanotech successful.. Over i give it a so so lorz.. lol
Then when going home, Tio Pang seh.. but nvm.. coz all of them wanna go holland V eat.. I really dun understand why cant they go to TAmp and eat instead haha.. i mean i tink it';s easier to go home frm tamp then buona vista rite? Zzz.. But nevertheless, i was left alone and return to sch.. and Guess wad!! juz read Gal's blog.. SO Qiao!! They were eating at TP! and i was oso at TP having my lunch lol.. but i went to design instead of mensa.. haha.. =S.. Well A fateless encounter.. haha time not ripe yet.. i guess gal will agree to this.. =)
Met gal.. Hee.. Really happy to see her.. then when i saw her, i ran to her.. I was tinking of running to her and gib her a real tight hug! and guess wad! when i reach in front of her and stop, my bracelet flew.. -.-" then spoil everything i planned in my mind.. Zzz lol.. To Gal: U muz be laughing now le ba? =P
Then i send her home to get her bag down etc.. and went back to the Mrt to take a train to PS.. Went to watch the show herbie.. hehe.. ONe thing for sure.. i tink gal change i lil betta already.. =).. Something like wad i wanted.. hehe.. I believed tat Love is being Made by the effort of 2 instead of destiny.. althou Destiny does play an impt play in bringing ppl tgt.. =).. I'm glad to have her by my side..
To Gal: Althou i may complain alot, I still love u for who u r.. juz need u for some slight change for the betta i believe.. =)
Then sent her home and we kissed.. Longest time eva!!! keke.. i hope to keep making it longer and longer.. then next time we can take part in competition.. loL!! see which couple kiss longer.. LOl! then, b4 i board the train first time gal initiate a good bye kiss to mi.. wow.! i was shocked and happy within my heart.. hehe..
This is a compliment to u.. but dun get too like "OKOKOK" w/ it.. haha.. can improve more de!!
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Recently very wierd.. i keep having headaches + Nausea feeling.. very sick liddat.. then now gal fall sick le.. feel so useless as i cant take care of her personally.. =(.. Then summore w/ exam round the corner.. Life's been stressed up and pressurise.. left 4 days to study now.. b4 the commence of the exam.. althou only 3 papers, the amt of study load.. Zzz So high Man!
Next, keep chasing after leslie for my $430.. Frm june till now.. he haven even returned 1 cent..really scared tat he wont return mi.. coz afterall it's my frenz money too.. haiz.. How can he liddat man.. tat time i borrow frm him money, 200 i pay him by all means even resort to borrowing money frm my classmate.. and now i cant even return them.. i wonder wad will they tink of mi as.. A sore loser? Owe money dun return type of bastard? Haiz.. wad can i do.. no amt of words i have put onto leslie will make him return mi my money.. then keep on delaying.. haiz.. God.. PLs Make him return mi my money.. =(
Time to end i guess getting ver severe headaches..Zzz
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