Finally reach the morning.. haiz.. moodless day.. later i gonna make a trip to sengkang again no Matter wad i gonna FINd it back.. sobz.. i cant juz let it lost like that.. sobz.. i will try going everyt single day in hope the person will return.. God please watch over mi.. sobz.. Why am i so careless.. why am i such a Bastard.. sobz..
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so sad to noe tat i forgotten to take my key out when i left the house earlier but luckily when i call home, my mum picked up and finally home sweet Home-.-"
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Today, 19th June 2.15am..
Today.. Met up w/ my honey in the early afternoon and then we had lunch together in Pizza Hut all these it was so sweet... heez.. Hmmm.. at first we went to the Library to search for the korean book and dere Honey passed mi a Cds she recorded till 7am ytd.. Hehe.. upon receiving this it's so sweet.. heez..
Then we had lunch at the Pizza hut at lot 1.. Wow/.. the food is great.. then we fed each other the oreo cheesecake.. heez so nice.. so sweet wish the time stopped.. haha... then later we head on doing some buying and stuffs liddat keke.. the time is so sweet today..
After wich after we left lot 1 we took a bus to her hse then later after some time.. we bid good bye w/ each other unbearingly.. sobz.. hai... Tears filled my eyes as i waving good bye and walking to Yew tee MRT station.. sobz.. then i sent her a sms.. hmm she nv reply until later time.. and by tat time i'm already w/ my good fren, Leslie in Orchard having dinner ( so paiseh he treat -.- ) then later we went to the arcade and i stood dere standing alone seeing em play games and stuffs like that.. SObz.. Dere, My mind suddenly filled w/ hOney.. i really miss u alot.. Haiz.. then later after spending times in the arcade we headed to sengkang to send leslie's gf home.. as we Guys gonna eat Kambing Soup later nearby his house.. so we sent her home
This is when bad things suddenly happend.. sobz.. honey.. i'm sorry. i wish u can forgive mi but i noe it hard sobz.. i'm truly sorry... ok. everyhting happened like this.. at first, in the train, we sat down on the floor and chit chatting like old fren whom we nv met each other for long.. then after that we got down from the train at the NEL line.. then i headed up to the 7-11 in the compass point.. as i am feeling thirsty then i go fill the water up.. and then after filling the water up, i left the Cds on the table.. then took out tat cardholder which honey gave mi.. and took out my 1.50 to pay for the big gulp.. then after taking the money, i put the cardholder back to the pocket.. then i took the big gulp and pay it to the cashier. then i went out to meet my fren as it paiseh to keep them waiting then later we board the bus sending her home..
After sending his gf home, we started to take a bus heading to Serangoon.. then to my surprise, i forgotten to take the Cds... then i panicked and qucickly ask my fren get down the bus we r taking and took another bus to head to compass point.. after reaching, i ran to the 7-11 again as my last impression in my memories is the Cd being left dere.. But... But.. sob.. sobz... I'm sorry Honey.. Sobz,.. the Cd was gone.. then i go and ask the cashier whether they got see a Ice Lemon Tee plastic bag dere.. and they say no as they business was too busy and they nv left the cashier so they nv take note of such thing.. MY heart sunk.. But i still carries a light of hope then i ran to the Mrt and Bus passenger service to askk if anyone reported lost of some Cds.. BUt the answer was negative.. this made mi almost cry on spot.. sobz..
Then later I ran back to the 7-11 to ask the cashier person 1 more time and searched the entire 7-11 but.. the Cd is nowhere to be found.. sobz.. then in the end i made up a bad choice which is to head back home as it's 11pm le.. sobz.. Why.. WHy am i so careless... WHy i am so bastard.. sobZ.. why Am i Such a jerk.. Why did i even lost something so precious my honey gave mi.. juz today..and i lost it.. sobz... i am a jerk.. a bastard.. sobz... i hate myself feel liek killing myself.. sobz. i noe wadeva explaination i trying to make juz increase my guilt.. i tried calling u to tell u the news but i cant get thru both ur number.. sobz.. hOney.. I miss u alot.. i feel very "Dui Bu Qi" u.. sobz..
Now, in my fren, leslie house.. dunno why got a feeling no face to go home.. so sad.. sobz.. coz i lost my only price possession.. tat's the Cd althou it's juz a CD but she made it personally.. there's not gonna be a 2nd one and i knew it.. sobz.. Honey i'm sorry to hav lost the Cds.. soBz.. i reallly feel so bad in my heart.. sobz.. tat's like always, u r the one like sacrified alot for mi.. sobZ.. like the cover this u spend alot of time writing and sticking the papers in nice color.. sobz.. I am a BAstard lah!!!! SObz.. I feel like so Sheng bu ru Shi.. Very "dui bu qi" Honey.. sobz.. THEN I LIEK do so little for u.. evenm the CD u made for mi.. tat made u do the thing till 7am.. juz like in a few hours time, it's gone.. SObz.. I feel like slapping myself why izzit liddat? All it's my fault.. if only i not thirsty.. if only i nv go sengkang.. if only i nv go meet my fren and go home straight all these wont happend!!! Sobz.. ALl my fault.. i'm sorry Honey.. sobz.. haiz... why liddat... dun even hav the mood to sleep and eat anymore.. sobz.. Honey.. i miss u alot lahz.... sobz...
Tink i gotta go home now.. it's getting 3am.. first time staying at my fren hse so late.. maybe i jzu wanna his accompany? haha.. haiz.. Honey... i truly sorry.. i hope u wont hate mi.. sobz..
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AGain writing in like a 1 hrs later.. GOD DAMN IT! Wanna play GB w/ my honey oso cannot. kena wad gamehack thingy!! ARR!!! >.<~ haiz.. but honey so sweet offer mi play checkers in MSN.. hehe.. Muacks Honey Best le.. MUacks!!!
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Today, 6th June, SUnday
Juz felt like writing after Reading my Honey's bloggy..
dear.. today u aint acting urself... coz i dun tink u would type to mi.. words like" isn't it betta?... More gals... more chiobu... etc" Dun eva say tat again honey.. HuG~ Upon reading your blog, i really dunno wad i can say or do to make u feel at ease.. at least betta than wad u feeling now.. and always in the nights, tears flows down ur beautiful cheek..
I really wish i can be dere to put my hands on ur cheek, using my thumb to wipe off the tears that is flowing down and hug u tightly to let u know how much u really meant to mi.. and dun eva tink u r a passer-by in any guy's life.. certainly not mi.. wadd i wanted always is a long and eva lasting relationship.. and i wished tat gal that i spent my time to is u..
I really felt good and comfy w/ you lorz.. but i really dunno why u feel love and at the same time sad together when u r with me.. Dear... wadeva u hav in mind juz tell mi k? so i can noe wad u feeling and everything.. the way u tink, u feel u act everything part, everything about u is important to me.. I dun wish this relationship to end.. =) i love u Honey~ Muack|e5
i'm really sorry that i cant accompany u throughout the night always.. as i hav made up my choice by sleeping early from today onwards.. and i really wished i can accompany u 24/7.. at least everyday of today.. coz.. i gonna start school soon le.. and i noe after i start sch, i cant be able to meet u everyday due to the school's timetable... haiz.. hope my school dun start at all sia.. =(.. haiz.. Dear i really misses u lorz..
And as u say about the generation gap, sometimes it's true i do feel abit distant between us.. but that's not a problem dear.. we can work it out de.. =) maybe ui see mi as carefree and happy is becoz i always tinking about the positive side.. i believed everything can be solved andd done between us by the power of Love =)..
Dun eva say about wad more gals, more chiobu all these.. it's like " SO wad?" at most i will only be fren w/ them lorz.. not to the extend of wad lorz.. i love u dear and only u.. dun tink so much to the bad side k? Muacks.. =) Dear.. give it a try.. whenever u feeling moody, hav a cup of warm milk, then sit down on a sofa in a relax manner... then drink a sip, keep the liquid in ur mouth, then closeur eyes and take a deep breath. Breath out le then drink the milk tat's in ur mouth.. hopefully can relax ur mind and body.. then in the mind tinking, "ahh.. So nice.." then eventually maybe u will feel betta de honey..
Then dear.. I Misses u alot.. and i'm certain it's more and more by each day and love u more and more.. if i say i love u to the MAX le, It's a lie.. no one can love someone to the max.. my love even if MAX le, can still break limit de... Love is nv ending it will only increase, grow or decrease... but to mi now, IT's increasin lorz..
I'm sorry.. i feel like i controlling u at times.. like when in MSN i ask u who u chatting or wad.. it's like i feel, kinda rude to be tracked on.. but i'm sorry.. i cant help it.. i really juz wanna noe.. but dear i will try to control myself not to be too much.. haiz.. my jealousy starting over again.. i hope it's not becoz of my own jealousy again tat causes another relationship to end ..
Finally, tink i wrote enuff already.. gtg in to play Gb w/ u le.. hehe..
Honey.. Sarang Hae yo.. Ashiteru.. wo ai ni.. I love u.. MUAck|es! MIsses YA DAMN DAMN MDAN VERY VERY VERY MUCH AND LOTS@!!!!!!
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Today june 3 11.53 pm..
well well.. Been ages since i last blogged.. And life is kinda cool .. As i juz knew a fren who lives in New Jersey, USA! Cool eH? haha.. and offers to drive mi if i able to go dere.. Tat's Rocks man! woo HoO!
Haha.. surprise tat i blog today ba? actually days has been so bored to mi.. as there's only mi and my game which i juz bought w/ my honey.. a few days ago.. to be precise, 2 days.. and i already completed the game -.-" well.. Guess gaming is so enjoyable.. haha.. relieves boredom and makes my rusty brain tink and work for awhile b4 it really gets rusty as some games really need some intellectual! haha.. But Overall, Its boring.. -.-" to stay at home.. w/o my love..
Next ting, i decided to blog today after reading a post in my Honey's Blog juz now.. well.. Now it's time to be confusing.. -.-" Hai... Whether izzit a replacement or izzit true love.. Sometimes i do question myself whether is this another so-called "rebound" love tat she told mi tat happened to her and casper.. which lasted 3 months.. currently we lasted 1 months + ba? well days juz passes and i nv really go count the days we have been together.. haha.. listening to my fav song.. Final fantasy X de.. the ones u guys r listening now.. haha.. Nice rite? hehe.. origins from eve and her senior play de.. dunno true a not.. but i tink it's false lahz.. where can play so nice! loL! Then again, i still preer not to tink so much about this relationship.. abt tat questions.. afterall.. this sentence, " Bu zai HU Tian Chang de jiu, zhi zai hu cheng jing yong you " OR IN CHINESE, “不在乎天长地久，只在乎曾经拥有”haha.. wadeva it is.. I will only care for now.. we r in LOVE and YES WE ARE =)... haha...
LOve is surposingly to be simple and plain.. no need to tink till so complicated.. haha.. Tat's wad i tink.. well well nth to write le.. only wish to see my honey tml nia.. hehe..
An other to add... hmm.. Due to marcus "EXPRESS OF LOVE" to my honey, I tink it's a threat sia.. Abit insecure.. but.. dun worry honey.. no big deal de.. i still confidence abt myself.. hehe!
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