Hai.. What is this getting into my mind.. I dun like it..
FACT:
I have fallen for Charyle..
But.. I dun dare to confess.. dun dare to let her noe.. I am afraid of rejection again and spoiling this close friendship i have w/ her.. Sigh.. Wad can i do..
Been close w/ her.. But is this close relation between mi and her due to the fact that we stayed near each other? or coz i am juz.. her GOOD FRIEND? =(.. I dunno.. IT's kinda affecting mi so much so that i can feel this "Pain" by e heart.. =(
I started to miss her. Always have this urge to find her.. meet her... Being w/ her is so much fun. Chat w/ her, Play w/ her.. It's juz nice and sweet..
Sigh.. But this kinda days are over.. we no longer chat every single night.. nor we meet up everyday le.. ='( I wished this kinda days will nv end.. but seemingly, It ended alr.. =(
Haiz i miss her.. I wanna be w/ her...
But.. IS that POSSIBLE?.... I dunno.. and i DOubt SO! .. Sobz.. =(
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Juz had my P.M.T Quiz.. Stupid sia.. that teacher said Marketing Aspect NOT IMPT and YET!!! It came out.. a 5marks qns for a 20 marks paper! WTF!!! -.-""
Oh well.. Juz thought of sth i wished to blog down...
"Life is like a game...".........."Juz a no 'retry' kinda game"
-Why? ( Let take the game, Ragnarok Online as E.G. )
Becoz, when we are born to this world as a baby, it's like the "Novice class" in the game.... Game of Life.
Den as we grow up, We learn various things like eating, drinking, toking, shout laugh angry blah blah blah... Until the point of time where we reached our puberty! Which is sth like the "Class Change" in the Game.
During the puberty phrase, we get to experience new changes, new friends, new knowledges. Like the Changing of Maps/Scenes, Putting new gamers in the Buddy List and earning experience by leveling up to learn other combat skills.
Slowly, we even get to create our own Clinque of friends juz like the "party" system in the GAme!
After Puberty, we get to settle down and eventually, get to work in the society where we chose our carreer which will stick to us probably the rest of our life until we are retired. It's like Choosing a 2nd class change in the Game learning new things.
However, During the process of life, we will lose friends that were made before like players quitting the game.
Sooner or later, we will tend to form a cluster of clinque from our friends that are made throughout our life Thus, creating sth like the "Guild" system In the Game!
Den we will soon catch on diseases and die which is like the Server Reset or getting "Sian" of the Game...
So.. what am i trying to say?
It's like in game, everything can have to 2nd chance or more.. like retry-ing to kill the boss etc. Everything in reality is only once and for all..
So Peeps, Make ur decisions well and live life to the fullest. Consider thrice even with the most minor decisions there are to be made.
So u Will nv live ur life in RegreT! =)
* End of Lesson
LOL!!!!
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Ytd Went to NRA's COncert, Danzation 2006. Wah Rox lo.. TOTAL TIME = 3hrs + OMG.. and twice longer den TP's Concert.. At first during the first half, the dance is quite boring... and i tink it Sucked... Lousier than G.E.M 2006.. But looking at the 2nd part of the show, the item and dances are splendid lo.. Especially the "Maids and the master", "No Title" and Some more i forgotten wad.. Their Couple dance Technique OWNS man!! The gal actually sit on tope of the guy's Groin and the gals grind them using HiP! OMG~~
Now i wish to Go NRA>... Coz their Variety of dance = DOPE.. LOL I tink if G.E.M we were to do that, Fayanne sure... " NONONO TOO OBSEEN! SCRAP IT OUT! " blah blah blah..
Haha...
K Gtg Swim..... Sun seems good today... hope i'll get a good tanN!!!!! =D~
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Today i Tok to "HER" tt very HER tt once broke my heart.. but, now it's kinda like.. ok le.. haha.. but dunno why, there's this nostalgic feeling in my heart for her.. haha.. oh well.. Crazy mi.. Zzz
Next, School seriously sucks.. so many HW! and SO DIFFICULT! -.-''' Cover letter, Resume blah blah.. Rubbish la.. my command for Ang moh so louya.. hw to do?!?!
This Sun, maybe gonna watch "Covenant" w/ Yoko next next.. Who should i watch step up w/? HER? or My clique? or someone else? haha.. Dunno.. SHall decide until den.. =D~
Nth much today is of my concern.. juz that rather sad my hair colour gone and i dun dare to re-dye coz i scare of the coming Medical Check up for NS.. dunno what will they do if they See my hair liddat.. LOL
Right..
*Peace Out
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Should I or Should I nt disclose my Blog?
It's been cold and rusty, hidden in one corner of my heart
Should I open iT? haha.. DuHz..
School is stress despite it's the last sems of my poly life.. i will miss TP for sure.. especially the dance club.. keke... Sigh.. Nw so many works to do...
Gonna have a performance next sunday.. haha sighj.. only choreo 1.30min and the required is 4min... sigh.. so many more left.. haha.. =P
Time to peace out.. Boring ring ring a bell world..
*When will the princess appear?*
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Wow.. Didn't noe it's been so long eva since i last came to blog...
Hmm So.. What's happening in my life now?
Dance , Dance , Dance and lastly, Still DAnce! =D~
My passion for Dance has increases eva since then and i am really glad as my skills improved and that i even performed outside b4 already.. and i tink to a person who juz learnt dancing like 1 yr +, Tt's a good achievement and a good step made into the dancing society..
Right now, I have accomplished;
-2 Concerts ( G.E.M ' 05 and ' 06 )
-1 Performance ( NYP Wushu Nite )
In my mind, these are the things that interests mi most;
-Performance for A.S arts fest (Jan 8 - 12)
-Danceworks ' 07 ( FEb)
-Funkamania (May)
Wished i can find enuf companions and dancers to proceed w/ my dance career.
Been Tinking through much.
Izzit time for mi to move on to find another gal? or am i still Waiting for her unconciously?
Seriously, I have no answers for either of these qns. but i doubt i am waiting for her still as the result and reaction from her is obvious.
In my dance circle, school or outside, i seen many many pretty ppl (galS) that really attracts mi and honestly speaking, i am quite interested in them too but hmm..
Should i take that step to chase them? Currently, i no longer possess that high self-esteem of myself anymore. Juz afraid.... afraid of failures again.. in Love
Haha But oh well.. dun really wanna tink so much...
But if there's this possiblity, i would like to find a girlfriend from this groups of people.
Wanna noe this groups of people?
Wait long long ba? =X wahhaa
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What's happening? What is the reason for us to become liddat? i seriously dun tink i had done anything wrong to deserve such treatment from u lo.. I admit i was irritating, pester u etc.. but it's all coz i wanna salvage this relationship of ours.. In fact, I see tis breakup is totally pointless lo..
I tried being friendly.. to try like be normal but why does it seems so hard to re-establish the friendship? muz we really dun care each other and go on our own way? act as thou we dun even noe each other at all? haiz.. why WHY WHY!!! and HOW? ting evolve liddat wad iz the ting i done that make it liddat or wad is the ting she tink i did made things become so jialat.. How cani reverse things and make things bettA? like as fren? haiz...
God guide mi help mi..
pls.. i need ur help.. =(
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